Once upon a time, not so long ago
We existed on a plane, together, one whole
Yin to Yang, completing each other
Aligned. Connected. In fusion.
But lately…
Stilted conversations
Awkward silences
That’s the currency we seem to be trading in
Lately…
My foot and my mouth
Have gotten more acquainted
The former finding a welcoming home in the latter
Lately…
Our words take on lives
Then become monsters
And we let our fear of them consume us, make us doubt
Lately…
Eggshells now carpet
Certain subjects turned triggers
An explosion is never too far from the surface
Lately…
Can’t put a finger on it
But something seems to have changed
Subtle, but certain
Lately…
I am myself around you
And yet, I’m not
I feel inadequate, like I’m not good enough anymore
Lately…
I’m so unsure
Second-guessing, hesitating
I can’t speak so freely anymore
Lately…
Afraid of making an error
Of setting you off
Of doing something else that you don’t like
Lately…
My mind is working overtime
Playing back conversations
Trying to figure out where I made a mistake, where it went wrong
Lately…
Still, I don’t get it
How seemingly small things become enormous
It’s like a puzzle I can’t seem to crack
Lately…
Maybe I’m looking at it all wrong
Maybe it’s something small
But it gets in the way often enough to be dangerous
Lately…
Lately, I feel like we don’t know us anymore…
