I wish I could disappear
Go far far away
From your cold
From your silence
From the dysfunction that is us
I wish I could fix it
Take it back to where it was good
And press pause
Or repeat
I wish I could get out of this loop
Good; Bad; Very bad; Not so good
Especially the not-so-good parts
Those are the hardest
Some days, we seem like strangers
I almost forget
what it’s like when we are friends
The egg shells are really loud
As I step on them without fail
It’s like walking through a minefield
Not sure what’s going to set us off,
Set you off…
I wish you would say exactly what you think
Even if it will hurt
I’d prefer knowing
Than imagining
Or guessing
That you’re less than happy
I wish you wouldn’t judge me
Not based on what you think
Or what you’ve seen in others
Or even in me
‘cos sometimes, I’m a reflection of you
I wish I could escape
The cuts and bruises from your words
Escape the awful, awful way
You sometimes make me feel
I wish I didn’t need you so much
Maybe then I could leave
Then I could put all the hurting behind me
And go back to old, lonely me.
